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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Post Holiday Letdown

Ok, so now what????

Christmas was very nice.  Maggie made out like a BANDIT!!  We really went a bit overboard, but hey.  She’s my kid, if I wanna spoil her, well, that’s my problem.  

To make it even more special, we left footprints coming from the fireplace and Santa left his hat behind!  She was so concerned… “Awwww, poor Saaaannnnntaaaaa…..his EARS are gonna get cold!” Santa also forgot to put the fireplace screen back where it belongs, but I won’t nag him about it J….
We took a LOT of pics but we have yet had the time to download.  As soon as I can get them, I’ll post pics of Maggie & all her loot!

My next OB/GYN appt is Tuesday.  I hope we can hear the heartbeat with the Doppler.  I’ve had a few dreams about blood, and the symptoms are starting to fade.  I can understand the nausea fading since I’m around 10 weeks, but should the boob soreness go away too?  I have been weighing “the girls” in my hands and they don’t feel any heavier and have even lost some of that “hardness”.  I can’t believe that I don’t remember this from a mere 3 years ago.  I feel like such a whiny crybaby. Damn those Niggling Doubts.

Just a few days until 2006.  We have no plans, I’m usually asleep before the ball drops and I’m sure this year will be no different.  How about you?  What are your plans for New Years Eve?  Any special traditions?

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Merry ChristmaHannaKwanzaaKa

So, have you finished your Christmas shopping yet???
If one more person asks me that, so help me…..

NO!  I have NOT finished my shopping yet! Happy??

No really, I’m not finished. But am I stressed about it? No.  Not at all.  Well, maybe a little.  Abso-freaking-lutely!

Joe has had to work overtime & his part-time job almost every day for the past week and a half.  Tonight he’s home, so right after his favorite, quick-slap-together dinner (beefaroni anyone?  GACK!  Hate that stuff, think I’ll have a bowl of soup & a grilled cheese sandwich) we’re off to the mall.  Children’s Place for Maggie’s Christmas jammies, Bath & Body Works for stocking stuffers & my niece’s B-day gift (What WAS my sister thinking to have a kid 4 days after Christmas?? Oh! And my Mom’s B-day gift(Hey Gram, what were YOU thinking having a kid 2 days BEFORE Christmas??).

Joe also tells me that he hasn’t had time to get me anything yet.  WHAAA????  So I guess I’ll even get to pick it out.  What fun.   I’m heading right for Kay Jewelers to point out something sparkly!  I’ve trained Mag to say, “Oooooh, Mommy needs dat” when the Kay Jewelry commercial comes on with the 3 stone pendant.  I’m sure he didn’t pick up on that subtle hint.  I’ve also asked him for a Dyson.  Can you say “Snowball’s chance??”  There is no way he would spring for a $430 vacuum. I still want one.  Maybe I’ll have to start a secret-savings account to buy one from E-bay.  

Then, it was decided (not by me) that we were going to host the Pollyanna party for his family at our house the day after Christmas.  So, it looks like a trip to BJ’s is in store for tonight also.  My house is in such C.H.A.O.S. (Can’t Have Anyone Over Syndrome) I don’t know when I’m supposed to get around to cleaning & cooking.  I kinda need him around to move furniture & stuff.  One of the perks of pregnancy is “Oh, honey, I can’t move that hutch in my condition”!  I won’t have to put the new bottle of water on the dispenser until at least September!

Oh!  I almost forgot.  I’m also in the middle of making new Christmas curtains for the living room.  I had made some about 3 years ago ( a nice, winter white with gold threading).  But they didn’t survive storage this year.  There were some weird brownish stains on the hem.  I think an M & M or Hershey’s kiss got lost in the storage tote.  ::sigh::  The new ones are a red & green plaid.  Not as loud as you might think since  2 of the windows in the living room are only 16”x 24”  and the 3rd is a normal 36 x 64.  So, in my spare time (bwwaaahahahaha) I’ll be cleaning, cooking, sewing, wrapping, doing laundry & in general, all my other “duties”.

Does it sound like I’m a little overwhelmed?  I guess I am a little, but I’ll put my happy face on & do the best I can.  If his snooty sister in law doesn’t like the dust bunnies, I’ll just tell her to stop snooping around under my bed!

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

TAGGED

You're IT! Seven Things . . .
You're IT!By Viva on Feelings Generally

I took the tag from DD Here are my answers. Even if not interesting, I have now participated in a Blog Peer Pressure Activity!

Seven things to do before I die (not in order of priority):

1. Be there for birth of my grandchildren (not in the room, just still around)
2. Pay off all of my credit card debt.
3. Figure out HOW my Mother had 8 kids & didn’t lose her marbles.
4. Visit Ireland.
5. Visit Scotland.
6. Win the lottery. (see #2)
7. Buy a house on the beach.

Seven things I cannot (or will not) do:

1. Navigate
2. Play an instrument (the triangle DOESN’T count)
3. Relate to Rich Bitches
4. Wait patiently in line
5. Math puzzles. (I don’t care how fast the train is going & what the drivers name is)
6. Bungee Jump
7. Wear a bikini

Seven things that attract me to my spouse (in random order):

1. Sense of humor.
2. Patience
3. The most gorgeous hazel eyes
4. He can play ANY instrument he picks up.
5. His sense of “goodness”
6. His love
7. The way he calls me every day to “check in”

Seven things I say most often:

1. “What the f*ck!”
2. “I hate this job”
3. “Whatever”
4. “No, Maggie”
5. “C’Mon, Dude! Drive!!!”
6. “Mags, do we reeeealllly HAVE to watch the Wizard of Oz AGAIN??”
7. “I love you, Danger Girl”

Seven books I read (in random order).
1. The Bible
2. Great Expectations
3. Four Blind Mice
4. The Chocolate Chippo Hippo
5. Goldilocks
6. Little Red Riding Hood
7. Dr Suess’ ABC Book

Seven movies I watch over and over again (in random order):

1. Rear Window
2. The Sound of Music
3. West Side Story
4. Die Hard (all 3)
5. What’s the Name of That Song
6. Bob the Builder (digging for treasure)
7. The Wizard of Oz

Seven people I'm curious about that I'd like to join in if you haven’t already:

1. E
2. T Cole
3. Stolidoli
4. The Queen Mama
5. Mystery Mommy
6. My Pet Peeve
7. and you too!

Friday, December 16, 2005

EGADS!!!

Silly me!
Fridays here at work are generally reaalllly ssssllloooowwww in the afternoon, so I was playing with Blogger. I decided that I would change the template. Fun right?
Yeah. Not so much.

Apparently, when you change your template, all of your links go away.

Fabulous. I wanted to alphabetize them anyway. Now, I know what I'll be doing for the rest of the afternoon. Besides scouring the internet for amazing, yet simple, appetizer recipes.

Something is wrong in the "Time-Space Continuum"

Ok this is kinda strange………..

I have most of you in my Favorites list.  Today, I try to visit Karen, and the post that comes up is from December 9th.  Now I KNOW that I read more recent posts than that.  
Same thing with Julia, I seem to be stuck in a worm hole, lost in cyber-space somewhere last week!!

Has this ever happened to anyone else?? What do I do go fix it???

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Looking Good!



Sorry for the late post.  I’m sure you’ve been anxiously awaiting the results of last night’s ultrasound.  

HB at 164 bpm
GA= by the tech’s measurements, 8wks 6 days
GA= by LMP  8wks 3 days.

I even got 2 pics of the nugget(which of course, I neglected to scan & upload. Sorry)

The bleed has almost resolved itself.  

Things are looking good in my uterus.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Symptoms

I had my first bout of morning sickness yesterday.  I was *almost* happy about it.  How weird is that??  I am one of those people who HATES to be sick.  I will try to talk myself out of throwing up if I can.  I am also a “sympathy puker”.  If anyone is getting sick & I can hear it, smell it or see it, I’m right there puking too.  Nice topic huh?  I think I’ll change it.


I have a follow up u/s scheduled for tomorrow at 5:30 to follow up on the bleed.  Dr. K. wants to make sure is hasn’t gotten any bigger or if in fact it has resolved itself.  I just want to see the nugget & make sure there’s still a heartbeat.  I’m not really having any DBT’s; I just want to see it again.

Joe spent the day with Maggie on Sunday.  They took a trip to The Fort Washington Expo center for a train show.  Joe loves trains.  He used to set up this huge, elaborate platform for Christmas.  We haven’t had one in a couple years, but he did pick up a small Christmas set for around the tree this year.  Maggie enjoyed it.  He said she was very excited about all the choo-choos.  

After the show, they stopped at his sister’s house.  As they were getting ready to leave, Bet was asking if Maggie was in a big-girl bed yet. (We have Bet’s crib. She let us borrow it when Maggie was born, and we do have to give it back.) When Joe told her, “No, but we are looking into getting her a bed.” Bet replied, “Well, you hold on to the crib, you’re going to be needing it aren’t you??”  Joe was like, whattaya mean? Bet said she was looking at me on Thanksgiving & she knows that I’m pregnant. She said she could just “tell”.  Bet has 3 kids and has had 3 miscarriages.  So maybe there is something about the look of pregnancy.  It’s not like I’ve gained any weight (only about 5 lbs, but that’s normal for me to pack on a bunch of pounds during the period between Halloween & Christmas) or popped out of all my bra’s.  Go figure.  Joe made her swear on her daughter’s life that she wouldn’t breathe a word of it to any one.  We are hosting the Pollyanna party for his family the day after Christmas & that’s when we’re going to tell them the news.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Remember

"Remember?"I participated with DD on this little gem:If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't *speak* often, please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL MEMORY OF YOU AND ME.It can be anything you want--good or bad--BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.When you're finished, post this paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you.No excuses, OK?

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Everything looked OK

Everything looked OK to Dr. K. last night.  
She explained the SCH to me and told me that it is VERY common and doesn’t mean that the pregnancy will fail.  She also suggested that I stop consulting Dr. Google behind her back. She will talk to me & explain anything I need to know at ANYTIME!  She gave me a slip to schedule a follow-up u/s for the bleed. And we discussed a “special” ultrasound procedure and screening that is done at Lankenau Hospital for birth defects.  
I’m not sure if I’m going to do any of the genetic testing.  The whole amnio thing scares the bee-Jesus out of me and the CVS testing sounds even worse!  When I was pregnant with Maggie, they had done the quad-screening and the odds of her having any birth defect were something like 527 to 1.  The chance of miscarriage with the CVS is 200 to 1.  Now, I’m not a betting woman, but I like the odds on the quad screening better.

Anyway, I’m still pregnant, my blood pressure is normal, my weight is ok (a little heavy in my book, but hey, the chart said it was ok), my pee is fine. Everything felt ok when Dr. K. “took the tour”, so I’m going to actually stop worrying about this for a little bit and enjoy this.  

Funny thing is, we haven’t told anybody yet.  I’m sure Joe has told a few of the guys at work (He would make a terrible prisoner of war; he can’t keep a secret to save his life!)  
But the only person here at work who knows is J.  The pg co-worker.  

I’m still going to wait until Christmas, maybe even later to tell the boss :::shudder:::, and the families. So you guys know more than my Mom does!  

Monday, December 05, 2005

Nothing Bad Happened

Storybook Land was a hit! Maggie had a great time. She had a meltdown when it came time to sit on Santa’s lap, but she fell in love with Mrs. Claus. She was waving to her as we stood in line, gave her a HUGE hug & kiss, then told her that she looked beeyooteefull! Well. You would've thought that nobody ever told her that. She got all flustered and gave her a big kiss on the cheek & told her what a good little girl she was! I have a picture of Mag, Joe & Mrs. Claus, but I can't seem to upload it to the post.... hmmm. odd.


We didn’t get to do as much as we wanted this trip as it was only about 30 degrees Saturday night and we were freezing! We rode the train around the park, She rode the Santa’s Sleigh ride & the carousel before we couldn’t feel our toes anymore.
It’s a shame because the place looked fantastic. I’ve never seen so many lights in one place. While we were on the train, I kept looking for extension cords or power supply stations…..didn’t find 1. Amazing. Joe almost had a stroke trying to get the rope lights around the windows Saturday afternoon. I wanted to tease him about it while we were there, but that would have been a long walk home for me.


Afterwards, we stopped at Lonestar steakhouse for dinner & she ate half of my dinner (turns out that my daughter likes her prime rib medium rare but closer to rare too!),
All of her steamed broccoli/cauliflower/carrots much to the amazement of the waiter.

All in all, a good time together.

Today it’s supposed to snow 3 -6 inches. Maggie is sooo excited. I hope it doesn’t start too late, I want her to be able to put on her boots & go outside to play in it before bath/bedtime.

Friday, December 02, 2005

UPDATE

*****UPDATE****
Just heard from Dr. K. with the Ultrasound results.  She says that my labwork results are fine, no need for Progesterone suppositories.  The ultrasound looked good.  There is a sub-chorionic hemorrhage.  She tells me (ME!) not to worry, that it is VERY common and usually resolves itself.  Well, me being me, I decided to go to Dr. Google and see what he had to say about SCH…..
sub-chorionic hemorrhage -- an area, usually near the edge of the placenta or in fluid just outside of the gestational sac, that is bleeding. This can either bleed out and show as spotting or bleeding, or can form a bruise that does not bleed. A sub-chorionic hemorrhage is not uncommon, and does not mean the pregnancy will end in miscarriage. It most often happens because during the normal course of the uterus stretching and growing, a bit of the placenta peeled away and bled. It will almost always heal on its own. There is a slightly increased risk of miscarriage if the hemorrhage is large (over 200 ml in volume), as it may mean the placenta implantation is weak. Bed rest is not always given, as many hemorrhages are very minor.
Of course Dr. K didn’t give me the size of the bleed or if was even STILL bleeding, so now I have something new to worry about.  Just my luck, Joe wants to take Maggie down to StoryBook Land to see Santa tomorrow & we all know how my last trip to Storybook Land went.  

Breathing Again

WHEW!!!!

Went for the ultrasound last night.  Nothing like having a very nervous woman with a full bladder in your waiting for 20 minutes.

The technician had the screen turned so I couldn’t see anything and was making little frown-y faces, so of course I was getting more and more nervous with each swipe of the transducer.  While making small talk, she asked if I had any children, to which I replied, “Yes, I have two.  How’s this one doing?”  When she said, “Well, there’s a heartbeat” I swear, I must have been holding my breath. I let out the biggest sigh of relief.  
After she let me empty my bladder for the wand exam and she showed me the heartbeat.  
Beating a little slow at 114 but she said that it was really early & she’s seen rates as low as 107 this early.  I am 6wks 4 days as of today.  

I have to call Dr. K. this afternoon to hear the results and I am going to ask her about the progesterone levels.  Maybe she’ll want to prescribe a supplement or maybe not.  I’ll let you all know.  

Thank you. Thank you, all of you, for keeping me in your thoughts.  Please know that I do the same for you.  

Thursday, December 01, 2005

A little Scared

Sorry I haven’t posted in over a week.  I’m sure that all my faithful readers (Thank you, all 3 of you!!) were worried SICK!  My mother would be absolutely SURE that I was “dead in a ditch” somewhere.  Why, as kids, were we always dead in a ditch???  She never said “abducted by aliens or kidnapped by gypsies”  
I’ll have to ask her about that later.

Well, yes.  My latest bloodwork results are in.
Progesterone is 11.9 & hCg was 10514.  I’m not a doctor in real life, but I used to watch General Hospital back in high school,  so of course I know what I’m talking about!
The hCg # looks real good to me.  I’m a little….umm….concerned about the decrease in the Progesterone as Dr. Google tells me that progesterone is required to SUSTAIN a pregnancy.  I read that the P levels will decrease when the placenta starts making progesterone on its own, but I think it’s a bit early for that.

I’ll be sure to post tomorrow with the results of the ultrasound.  Unless I’m curled up in the fetal position in my bed with a box of tissues.  
No, I kid.  I’m actually starting to feel like this might be a true, bona fide, actual pregnancy.  I’m starting to feel a touch “yukky” if I don’t eat something every couple hours… the boob tenderness still comes and goes, but I’m even waking up in the middle of the night to pee.  I NEVER wake up in the middle of the night.  My head hits the pillow at 11- ish & I sleep until the alarm goes off in the morning.

I go for the ultrasound tonight at 5:45.  Please hold a good thought for me.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Be Thankful




                              

  Some thoughts from great thinkers on gratitude:



“Some people have a wonderful capacity to appreciate again and again, freshly and naively, the basic good of life, with awe, pleasure, wonder, and even ecstasy.” – A.H. Maslow

“Silent gratitude isn’t much use to anyone.” – Gladys Berthe Stern

“There is a calmness to a life lived in gratitude, a quiet joy.” –Ralph H. Blum

“In ordinary life we hardly realize that we receive a great deal more than we give, and that it is only with gratitude that life becomes rich.”  -Dietrich Bonhoeffer

“Happiness is itself a kind of gratitude.” –Joseph Wood Krutch

“If you can’t be thankful for what you receive, be thankful for what you escape.” –Unknown

“They are not poor that have little, but they that desire much.  The richest man, whatever his lot, is the one who’s content with his lot.”  -Dutch Proverb

“A thankful person is thankful under all circumstances.  A complaining soul complains even if he lives in paradise.”  -Baha’u’llah

“Find the good – and praise it.”  -Alex Haley



I am thankful for Joe, Maggie, my family, my friends, and my health.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!

Monday, November 21, 2005

The Results Are In!!!

Well, lets see…..something is 28.9 & the other thing is 1401. Whatever the hell THAT means!!!  
DR. K. was with a patient so the receptionist gave me the #’s….. She did say that Dr. looked at the results & said that the #’s looked “good”.  Does anyone know what they’re supposed to be?  Can I relax a little???

They’re going to fax another slip so I can get the bloodwork done again on Friday.  

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Thursday Ramblings

Today is Joe’s Birthday. I love this man. Some days, I can’t for the LIFE of me figure out why, but then there are days like yesterday……
He saw these & thought I might like them.








Hello?? Tiffany & Co. bead earrings??? You thought I *might* like them???? Can I get a Hayll-yes! On HIS birthday, he’s buying me jewelry. Whattaguy…


In other news….as Cecily would say, NBHHY, but I’m not feeling very preggers. I have no…count ‘em, NO symptoms.
There has been no morning sickness, my boobs aren’t sore, my nails aren’t growing, I’m not dog-as$ tired……I’m going to the lab tonight for the blood-work. I’ll call Dr. K and see if I can get a follow up stab next week…isn’t that how it goes?

In other, other news; Maggie is in a show today at daycare. They are doing a Pot Luck Luncheon and before the lunch, the children put on a show…she sang the song for us last night… to the tune of “I’m a Little Tea-pot”

I’m a little turkey
My name is Ted
Here are my feathers
Here is my head
Gobble, Gobble, Gobble is what I say,
QUICK! HIDE! It’s Thanksgiving Day!!

Pics to post later….

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

WHAAAA??????

Whaddayamean she’s booked???  But, but, dammit, it’s ME!!  Cat… You remember me….the MC in July??  You are going to make me wait til DECEMBER 6th for an appointment??
:::SIGH::: I know I’m not her only patient, but jeez, shouldn’t I be first??
Nursie is going to fax over the slip for bloodwork anyway….I guess I can get that done first.  Just to y’know, make sure I am…pg and all….

I wonder if they’ll let me do that every week?  Maybe I’ll bake cookies for them….

Monday, November 14, 2005

But Wait.....

ADDENDUM II

Maybe I shouldn’t have posted that
What if I just jinxed myself??
What if I read the damn thing wrong?  
Maybe I should go back & get one of the digital ones
What if I get my period tomorrow?  I’ll feel like such an ass.

I’m not even going to tell Joe yet.  His BDay is Thursday….wouldn’t that make a lovely gift?  Tee hee, he’s expecting a Fisherman’s chair & some tackle… OOOH!  Maybe I’ll put the HPT in the Tackle box!!  HAHA.  

What to do?  What to do?




ADDENDUM

ADDENDUM

I just couldn’t do it…. I tried to wait until morning.  I went home at lunch today and took another HPT….

To borrow from Julie………


JESUS GAY I’M PREGNANT

Not a faint plus sign, a bona-fide, dark, full, plus sign.  
However, still no symptoms.

I have to call the OB/GYN to set up an appt.. I will ask her if I can get a date with the wand every week until I feel better and can relax…..

Holy crap, now I’m scared. I’m going to worry and fret and get myself all worked up over every little thing now…..

I’ll be doing a lot of praying in the next few weeks.  Won’t you join me??

Fun things to do an a GORGEOUS November Weekend

I don’t know what the weather was like in YOUR neck of the woods this weekend, but it was positively glorious here.  Saturday’s high temp was 64; Sunday was even milder with a high of 68.  Bright, sunny skies with almost no breeze.  It was a perfect Indian summer weekend.

On Saturday, Maggie and I decided to have a picnic at the playground.  I packed her favorite lunch (PB&J, a yogurt, and a few E.L. Fudge cookies and a juice box in her Winnie-the-Pooh lunch box & off we went.  She played on the slide, the merry-go-round. (Spin me FASTER Mommy) and all the little ride ons.
We spent almost 2 hours playing chase, and lying on our backs looking at the sky through the trees, finding shapes in the clouds, and just holding hands.  We were the only people there for at least an hour, and then other kids started to show.  Maggie promptly forgot I was there & ran off to make some new friends.  I love that she will do that.
I love that she is outgoing and positive and self assured enough to go up to a child that she has never seen before and say, “Hi, wanna play wit me?”  After the park, she napped for her usual 2 hours while I finished the laundry, re-caulked the tub and had a cup of tea on the deck in the sunshine while reading a novel….OMG!! I actually had time to READ a few chapters of Stuart Woods’ “Cold Paradise”.  I can’t remember how long it’s been that I could just read.  It was wonderful!  

Later that afternoon, we went on a treasure hunt, looking for pretty leaves, pine cones and acorns.   I simply cannot fathom that no one on my block has an oak tree…. There are maples all over, a few pines, birches, and those ugly gum sap trees, but no oaks.  
Had I known this, I would have saved a bunch of them from the trailer.  There was never a night there where we weren’t startled by the sound of an acorn hitting the roof of the trailer.  Where am I going to buy acorns??!  I saw on Better Homes & Gardens dot com where you find these items & paint them in fallish colors for a centerpiece.

On Sunday morning, we went to Michaels Craft Store for metallic paints.  I found “Autumn Leaves, Aztec Gold, Red Maple and a forest green.  I couldn’t resist the Blue Topaz and Amethyst. You usually don’t find too many blue or purple leaves, but they were so pretty I had to get them.  We painted the pine cones last night and they look really good!  I finished a few of the pine cones off with silver glitter on the ends of the ….what the heck are they called?  Each little “petal” of the pine cone… I’ll try to snap a pic of them & post it later…

Maggie thought it was hilarious that she painted without her shirt on.  I’m tired of pre-treating her clothes when she paints.  The daycare is supposed to make her wear a smock for art projects, but most of her clothes have a paint stain on them somewhere… they swear its water-based, but I can never get it all out.  I
Of course, she needed a bath after that project!

That was my weekend…. What did you guys do??

Oh Yeah…by the way.
still no period.  Hmmmm….


Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Maybe Next Time

Well I guess that answers my question.

Stopped at Rite-Aid on my way home for lunch.

Not Pregnant.

DAMN!!

Guess I know which aisle I’ll be stopping at in Target.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Maybe a trip to Target would be helpful

Maybe a trip to Target would be helpful?


Maybe I’m just getting my hopes up. But what else have I got?

After J told me about her dream I’ve thought of nothing else.  Could I be?  Will this one be ok? How depressed will I be if I’m not????

Last night I had myself talked into tingly boobs & a slight nausea.  
I’m supposed to get my period this weekend.  I’m not having any back-cramps like I usually get the week of, but I do have my NorthStar zit that I get every month….

What’s a girl to do?   Should I hold out til Sunday when I do my weekly shopping to take a quick trip to Target for a mega-pack of HPT’s?? Or check the linen closet to make sure I have enough “girl-stuff”.  ::::SIGH::::

Monday, November 07, 2005

Pregnant Dreams???

So exactly how much stock *can* I put into the dream of my pg co-worker?  
J. stopped by my office as she does every morning to say:

J:  Hi, Happy Monday!! (She knows that I love Mondays… the day flies since I’m x-tra busy on Mondays)

C:  Hey there, chick-a-dee… How was your weekend??

J:  OOOH!!  I had a dream about you last night!

C:  Oh.  Well, I’m flattered; but I don’t swing that way…. Well, just that 1 time in college, but we we’re REALLY drunk and it never got any further than… Oh, wait.  You don’t mean it that way, huh???

J:  I dreamed that you were….::::And moves her hand in a large outward half-circle over her cute little bulging belly::: You know…

C:  Oh.   Yeah, well.  I’m not feeling any symptoms…..

J:  Maybe it was just one of those “wish-dreams”  

We *did* try to make-a-baby during the fertile time last month, but I’m not feeling too good about it.  I think there was some “performance anxiety” on both parts… Maybe next month I won’t tell Joe that it’s the “Right Time”.  And, I know, I know… Just relax.

Just for fun something to kill time, I went to that Chinese Gender Predictor website… and for the next 2 months, If we conceive, It’ll be a boy!  Now don’t get me wrong…. I LOVE MY DAUGHTER.  But man oh man… does she have my most annoying traits.  

She is stubborn, opinionated & moody.  Lately she will cry at the drop of a hat, refuses to eat anything except peanut butter & jelly sandwiches or noodles.  We fight EVERY morning.  I know that she’s just trying to assert her independence, but gawd daymit I don’t have TIME in the mornings to let her dress herself!   Maybe I’ll stop by Wal-Mart & buy a bunch of sweatsuits for her….no snaps or zippers, it usually doesn’t matter if they’re on backwards or not…..I don’t remember having these arguments with Dan.  

My mom (who has 8 children!!  6 boys, 2 girls) always said that she would take all 8 boys since boys will at least play together.  If you get more than 1 girl in a room, they tend to fight & argue & be petty…thanks Mom, love you too.  

Thursday, November 03, 2005

trick or treat!!!

"I have some goodies for Grandma..... TO HAVE"!!

If you've never seen the Bugs Bunny episode, you won't understand..... If you haven't seen it, what rock have YOU been hiding under????

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Thursday

As Rod Stewart would say, “Tonight’s the night”.
We sort of wasted last night by spending the evening re-arranging the furniture on the living room. By the time we were finished, I was too tired to think about baby-makin’.

My evil plot.... oh. wait... I mean incredibly, sexy, romantic plan consists of plying him with red meat, Budweiser & Survivor. If I can bring myself to do it, I might even offer a back-rub. It’s generally not too bad since he considers backrubs foreplay. I hate giving backrubs…. It makes my carpal tunnel hurt. Hopefully in a couple weeks I can have some good news to share. I’ll make sure to get to Target & stock up on HPT’s.

SOME OTHER “STUFF” I’M THINKING ABOUT:
For the past several months, I’ve been reading blogs of infertile gals, infertile gals who have had babies, gals who have had babies and are now infertile…..I never realized how hard it can be to have a child. While I have had a miscarriage, I also have 2 wonderful children. Dan was born when I was 17. yeah, I was young & stupid, I know. Yes, I finished high school & eventually married his father. Divorced him after 2 years, but hey.. I tried. 21 YEARS later, and after 10 years of a much happier, healthier marriage, I had Maggie. Now, I want another baby.
We don’t want Maggie to be an only child. We love the whole idea of having another. My fear is this…..what if I can’t?? I don’t know for a fact that there is anything “wrong”(???) with me other than the age factor, but I know women are having babies well into their 40’s and sometimes 50’s. If the m/c was just “something that happened” or was it my aged, decrepit, 40 year old body telling me to just knock-it-off, what-the-hell-were-you-thinking???

If, (pleaseGod,pleaseGod,prettyprettypleaseGod) I do get pregnant again, what changes do I make to this blog? Any?? What if I have another m/c?? Would I try again? No. I’m not real good at dealing with loss. I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy (you know who you are, you conniving, judgmental, twofaced, slimy bitch!).

So I guess for now, I’ll try to keep my head in a good place; my heart will be full of hope, love & optimism. And if anybody up there is listening, my uterus will follow shortly with the whole hope, love & optimism thing…

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

The Great Pumpkin

Here's one of the only pics I was able to get on Sunday.... That's Maggie & her cousin Craig testing the sturdiness of the pumpkins at Linvilla Orchard.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Here we go again...

OK sports fans.... According to my charts, my "fields will be ready for planting" Wed, Thurs & Fri..I've already informed Joe of this factoid(over dinner last night!!!) so we'll see.

In other news, we visited Linvilla Orchards Pumpin Patch over the weekend. It was a beautiful, sunny, crisp fall day. I managed to get 4 or 5 pictures before THE FRIGGIN CAMERA DIED!!
:::note to husband::: Do NOT give your long-suffering-wife the digital camera if you have NOT recharged the damn batteries!!!

Thursday, October 13, 2005

THE SONG I CAN'T FIND ON THE INTERNET.....

OK, Internets.... I need your help.

Sunday, we were at my MIL's and Matt (BIL) started doing that song that plays when you are in a conga line.... you know.. Duh, duh, duh, duh, DUH, duh! duh, duh, duh, duh, DUH, duh......
Well, Maggie lost her little mind & was JAMMIN! I wish I had the camera for that one. (Ala Chookooloonks & Patti Labelle's ABC song)

Shakin' her little booty, snapping her fingers, her head was bobbing back and forth.
She did this for almost 5 minutes. Spinning around, clapping along with Matt. We were hysterical. Now I want to find the song so we can play it home for her.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Sometimes Men Say the DUMBEST Things

So, last night after I put Maggie to bed, Joe & I are sitting on the couch watching Commander In Chief, when out of the blue he turns to me & says, "So, when are your fields going to be ready for planting?"

Well, as creative as that may be, I didn't find it funny, or romantic, or even mildly amusing.

Everywhere I look, there are PREGNANT women!! I can't even watch the news without thinking about my fertility or lack thereof.
Of the 3 local tv stations here in the Philly 'burbs, there are 3 or 4 pregnant women. Most of them are the Meteorologists... whats up with that???
I think Sally Ann Mosey just doesn't look "right" unless she's pregnant.

I really thought that the miscarriage wasn't going to affect me like this. I thought I could handle this by myself. I went through the whole miscarriage alone (my choice) We were down the shore when the bleeding started. Joe packed up & drove me straight to the hospital at home. Once we got to the ER, I made him go home with Maggie. It was about 8 pm & she was getting tired, so I told him that HOME would be the best place for her. I was able to call him a few times to keep him updated on the situation: heading down to radiology now... 5wk fetal pole (I was 9 wks at that time) no heartbeat, D&E scheduled for later tonight... By the time the "associate-on-call" got around to me, (There was a delivery) it was almost 3 in the morning. The E.R. nurse & the OB kept commenting on how "strong" I was being to do this alone. Truth is, I didn't WANT the people I love to see me crying & weeping like a basket-case. I know if I called my mom she would have been there. At 3 A.M.
Joe would have called his mom to sit at the house while he came back to hold my hand. I didn't want to burden anyone with my sadness.


I hope & pray that next month, we can get pregnant & STAY pregnant. I'm not one to dwell on negatives, but I AM 40 years old. Talk about "old eggs"... But then again, "they" say that "40 is the new 30".

Monday, October 10, 2005

Another day in paradise


Monday, Monday.....So good to me.......

I don't really have anything to say today, I just wanted to try & post a pic of Maggie....

Here she is showing us how she does "Moose ears" My BIL has taught her all kinds of neat things....

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

NOT MUCH TO REPORT

Ok, so we've been "trying".
Still not pregnant.
:::sigh:::

There is a girl here at the office who conceived a few weeks after I did.
She's all giddy (which she has every right to be, stop being such a BITCH Cat!!!)
the only problem is that she comes to my office every day & tells me all about every little ache & pain she has. I.am.so.friggin.jealous.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

A Long Weekend


Soooo, Maggie & I leave for the shore tonight. Hubby follows Friday morn.


I can't believe its labor Day weekend already. Where HAS the time gone?

Our trailerpark closes November 1st, so we still have a few good beachy type weekends ahead of us, but still. Now I have to start thinking about getting out the fall clothes, closing up the trailer for the winter, winterizing the pool at home, and possibly, just possibly getting pregnant. yep, you read that right. Getting pregnant.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Ahhhh, Feel the love

Ok, so let's see.... Did you miss me?

Judging by the comments (or lack thereof) I don't think you even noticed I was gone. :::sniff:::

That's ok. I understand.
Sooooooo annnywayyy. Let's see. Maggie & I drove to the shore Friday night, we went to Ocean City's boardwalk, she had a good time, we weren't able to get Joe to sit in the booth for pictures with us, he sucks.

Once I figurwe out how to put pics on this thing, I'll have some really good shots of us.

Friday, August 26, 2005

And Away We Go..................

Ahhhh Friday.....

Tonight Maggie & I will be heading to our trailer in Sea Isle for the weekend. YAY!
Joe's already there since he works a 10 hour day-rotating shift and he was off Thurs, Fri & Sat.

I Love, Love, Love the trailer. Now, don't picture your stereo-typical "trailer-park" here. Our campground has not one Dale Earnheardt racing flag nor will you see empty Budweiser cans laying around. It is a nice place. There is a lake, a nice pool, clubhouse (with BINGO every Friday night.. oh boy), a very outdated playground (every piece of apparatus is metal & they have pea-gravel...pea gravel for Christ's Sake!! as ground cover.) for the kids. I have considered annonymously suggesting they update the playground with resin equipment for the smaller kids & putting that recycled tire & bouncy stuff under the monkey bars & climb-y things. We'll see.


I'm still trying to decide how ummm...intimate I will allow this blog to be. The title is good. I really don't have a very exciting life. Other than the humerous antics of Maggie & my recent miscarriage, I really don't "do" anything that other people would want to read about.

That's about it for today.....See ya Monday!

Thursday, August 25, 2005

The Beginning

OK, here goes......

My very first posting.

My name is Cat. I'm in Sharon Hill, PA a little suburb outside of Philadelphia.
Married to Joe, one son, Dan (23) in Utah. One daughter; Maggie(2yrs)

I started reading A Little Pregnant by Julie in early July when I found out I was pregnant.
Unfortunately, I miscarried July 31st. I still read Julie & StoliDoli every day.
We're going to try again in a little while, I just had my post D&E checkup yesterday and was given the all clear by the Doc. So, once he gets over his massive head cold.... he's all mine!